Ops~ Sorry~

o.O it's been long time leaving my blog frozen over here..LoL...is kinda lazy to update blog nowadays...
aiks...yeah...prefer the previous ME! :)
after gone through many things...hmm...quite hard of finding a suitable friend that can consider close to me~~wondering huh??...i think u should have d same feeling~ :D
yeah~ prefer the previous me~ that would always be stay quiet...but look annoying outside sometimes...actually not..
hmmm...found back quarter of myself! :)

i think i knew what i done to others ppl sometimes...
that give others some kind of impression that look like im really .... Oopsss~~
hahaha~~ thats funny...lmao..wondering am i look like??? :D
It's becoz im easy-going person~~ u wan play? i can play with u IF YOU DONT MIND!
but dun misunderstanddd~~ :)

but seriously lar...im not that kind of what u thinking about...to anyone~~ :D
aiks...just something like...
hermmm o.O ya! im mix with everyone! is anyone! as long as i feel better and comfortable if im v you...
if i dont...then is really not...but im still not GAY OKAY! prefer FRIENDS more than PARTNERS!
thats why i said...wanna find the only one that know u is very hard... coz not everyone will know urself actually..
even the best friends SOMETIMES also cant catch wat u think bout~~ :D

i might look lil bit special and out of ordinary than others...
but i still SAME Species with a MAN okayyyy...
damn...*shutting my mouth** >ois sensitive! @.@

those wanna find me..oh com'on...
"knock knock knock"
Ops~~ sorry~~ WRong door, wrong people, wrong No. :)

whatever you wanna say is okayyy...i dont mind~~ :D is ur mouth ur saliva but not mine!
but just rmb u will get that one day~~:D is a feedback ! ^^
self know is GOOD ENOUGH! :) Cheerrrsss~

A realistic business world...

Is the 2nd year 1st sem of gamma! the subject getting tougher and tougher....
and yet im not prepare for it yet...
cyberP....cyber Pee...cyber peeee.....sigh! what c8ve idea i can think about....
seriously i have many idea on how to do on real business....but somehow whenever an entrepreneur make a decision... actually they need the spiritual support from people surroundings~~ they need others support their idea and decision so they can proceed their business....thats why this is the risk and challenging part of being an entrepreneur!!! i need it....

"A knowledge...is something that u know and u share it out with others...u know something but u din share..that not knowledge...!!! "...
yea...something that i like from wat the lect had mentioned....although the lect quite strict and have a high expectation from us....but i do really learn a lot from him....thats how the realistic business world goes on....like it...

here comes the 2nd year of U studies in my life....
many things we need to learn how to do...cant have a joke d...
d 1st time i became a leader... i think tis is the fate...
cyber p....not an easy business what u had think...
there have soooo much things and idea i need to share it out here...but is might be too long to share...

1stly, i'll talk about myself!

from now on, i'll set a high expectation for myself...no more joking no more kidding! im serious! i think...mb u did not OR never see how seriously i am actually....just i dun like to show it out...i'll not as what u have seen las time of me...
"when im serious, i mean it, i do really mean it! N-E-V-E-R E-V-E-R play v me okay..."
u wanna try? i can accept ur challenge...but u better play like a gentlemen okay!

2nd, whatever words i have spoken out from now will be very realistic, cruelty and somehow might hurt you....so be prepare....dun say im not giving any warning or im emo...there is a reason behind what is happening! and please dun give me watever face to see how u are feeling rite now...im not going to care bout it...dun like? u may leave....

things that i hate the most!

1) when u wanna do something....pls dont ever complain about it! no matter u are men or women...i treat as all the same! u are a MEN so pls behave like a gentlemen! and no more nagging like gals! even a gal oso can be tougher than guy! u wanna do, just do it! if dont, NEVER EVER touch on it! get it? but never complain on how bad u are..i WONT CARE! we are almost21 and we know what we should do.."no more spoon feeding anymore! please!"

2) do u know in chinese 口是心非? something like u say u dont want something..but actually ur heart do really like it! tis is one of d most i hate! u wanna go somewhere, just tell it...dun tell me this dun like there dun like but AT LAST, the answer is u gonna choose tis...how lame ist....

3) when people speak, u have any idea any question or ANY OBJECTION pls do really raise up ur hand and speak! dun wait until after the meeting or we done of it only u re-discuss the problem again. after we make the decision, do not show me how disagree or unhappy ur face look like...hate it! ist tis the face expression meeting or mouth discussion meeting?

4) when everyone is agree with one thing, dont u suddenly come out and say " i disagree! "
or " what is that, i dun wan..i dun like...."
What? eh now tis is individualistic world or what? do u know wht is minority follow majority? when u dun like u just say it out ar?
do you think about others? have u ever think what is their feeling when u say no means no? follow ur plan? what u like? then u do it alone....
oh com'on...now the problem is U urself cant get used to the matters... so u have to follow up from others...unless u are a leader...but i'll bet u will never have a chance become a leader..

5) please have A MOTIVATED HEART and ATTITUDE. u know, what i hate is the person who give up on the half way...or even LAS minutes! seriously tell you, I'LL LOOK DOWN YOU FOREVER AND EVER!
what happen if just a small matters "pop out" to stop u or u cant even settle a small obstacle? how u going to face the world in the future? tell me u going to hide inside office and ONLY FACE THE PAPERS? har? thats going to be funny....
hey, GOD are here to always help us anytime anywhere.... we born to solve thing our own way not to avoid any problems...if not, WHY DO WE LIVE FOR? USELESS and a NORMAL LIFE? EAT, SLEEP, EAT SLEEP? thats all? be optimistic people... be open minded thinking...any unexpected matters can be happen anytime out of ur prediction...so always be prepare...and accept with it!

what else can i tell anymore? there is a lot of things i can tell..
there is no the end... the only survivor is the most strongest and toughest in the world... the losers is the weakest and will be game over and removed from the world...thats how realistic the world are...and im here not to critique or Backstab, talk bad bout others...im not "shooting" one person and those read my blogs will know wat i mean....and who i mean...this is real that happen in our life....think it...change it urself...

Sometimes...

Sometimes Im quiet,

Doesnt mean i have nothing to say...

Doesnt mean I lose to u When we are in "debate Competition"...

Doesnt mean i dont care about this matter...

Doesnt mean im accept with it...even happy with it....

sometimes its better for me silence rather than i talk. coz i know it doesnt work if i do so.
ppl are stubborn. they always make the wrong mistakes even they know what they did...no matter how many times u nag on them...they will hear...but not listen....tis is wats happen on human behavior...

and sometimes i DO PREFER SOLO than teamwork....
the things get worst if there is everyone try to settle on it...
DOTA i solos....Band i Solos...Society i Solo...Even study i tend to be Solo sometimes....
and i Prefer...why?

Is hard to find someone that could really same thinking, same perception and even same hobbies with you sometimes...
anything that i like....u may dislike....anything u hate...i may love it very very much...
thats why people say u can find any friends that is close with u, but is hard to find those have almost same needs and wants like u yourself...u know...is like another clone of yourself...
but some closer friends....they cant stay by urside till forever...one day they still need separate from u and find their lovers~
tis is how realistic the world is right now....sigh :(...

RoaR !!!!!!!!

Me : "Woahhhhhh.....arrrgghhhh" (Germany GOAL for 3-1)...T___T

1st time i was watching football match v my family for England and Germany......
i mean long time din watch football match dy...coz i dun really like to watch football ACtuaLLY...know why? herm...for me lar...d whole field all ppl grab for one ball and it takes long time to GOAL even one ball sometimES!...so i dun have d patient to watch sometimes...i rather watch basketball or badminton than sitting there for 90 mins to goal for ONLY bout 2-3 balls~~ =.=...hehe....

BUT! NOT today! dunno why i have the feeling for watching tis match~~ although England Lose for the match T_____T sad :'(
(p/s : im ENG fans actually......hehe :P )
oh ya! one thing! coz ITS ROONEY PLAYING IN THE MATCH!!! LOL!!! >.<....argghh...
HE's HANDSOME SERIOUSLY OKAYYyyyyy!! ..>.<

OKAy!~ WAIT! i know wat u guys are thinking now! =.=
errr...u surely will ask me : " Are U .......?" =.=|||....swt....
but im going to answer Euuuu :" no im NOTTTT !!! "...>.<
Dun misunderstand plssssss :P hehe

okok back to d main point....
>>> argghh hes handsome!! lmao! lazy to upload his pic lar...go search from google...
thats why i like ENGLAND! coz DAvid Beckham there ALSO!! handsome handsome~~ yeng! i like himmmmm TOOOO! lololx...=.=
EngLANd ROARR!! D.beckham ROAR!!! ROONEYYY ROARRRRRRRR!!! muahaha :D
but now ENGland have to went back home dy...they lose the match....sad..:'( really sad..T__T

hahaha..okok enufff...sryy sryy tooooo over...>.<
sigh....long time din watch football match till so gan jiong d...i ROAR d moments they GOAL okay! ..lol....and know wat...today i'd plan to study my marketing Ass. "100 great business" but i FAILED! argghh...becoz i watched the match till bout 12..after that have a great chat v my friends...>.<...sad :'(
FAILED...seee....1st step to become hardworking alrdy fail....aiks...haha dun laugh me okay..:(

wow! i think im starting to love football dy...tis is wat normally guys did and wat they call "gentlemen"..>.< but i didnt for the past of my life..=.=zzz
actually is quite excited to watch them play...thats why everyone like to scream or cheer when they GOAL! So do i....:)

okay..football is football~~ dun get urself too ever on it~
i mean u can gamble but dun too over..
once u win u get many...BUT once u LOSE, u nOT only get nothing, BUT U are LOSING!
so know wat u are doing lar ppl~~ okay...

Aiya thats all for today ba~~
just wanna say~ I start TO LOVE U FOOTBALL~~ Especially ROONEYYY~~~~♥♥♥
lol...my pattern was backkk...=.=..haha dun blame me...hehe..too sampat sometimes..@.@

I LOVE U ENGLAND ♥♥♥ :D

Nitez ppl~~ :)

UnLucky Day..?

"Awww....shit!....Its raining...fine...sleep back"....

Woke up early in d morning today...
seeing the rain seems like wont stop....
so i'd decided to sleep back...LOL!..and i skip my 2 Lect Class....
hmmm actually is one 2 hours lec class only..coz d BET Lect Din come AGAIN!...luckily i din go
muahaha :D...>.<

oh com'on..i do HATE rain actually!
im wondering why do most of the people like rain...
if It's rain at the right moment right time and place then ok lar...
now rain while i have something to attend like class...meeting or watever...
and u dont even know d feeling Bikers cant step out of the house when there's raining...
thats i hate it~ any actvt like Sing K, Classes or Shopping will be cancel....
pls if wanna rain after i come to campus only rain okaY?
sigh...=.=

here comes another....
today BEC class...
just a sentence
" so is either u use 7.25% or 7.25%....is 7.3% oso can..."
awww... just feel funny when lect speak tis twice..
but actually she wanna say
"either 7.25% or 7.3% oso can"...
ok i laugh....(haha :D)
BUT...but what??!

AWWW SHE SAW IT!!! OMG....
" aww u laugh eh......."....(hahahahaha..but is really funny)
"ermm...wats ur name ar?".....

"err...Ck...."..
from tis moment she remember my name!...awwww myyy GOD!...
damn...should i say tis is unluck for me ?
or should i say tis is something like awesome, rare chance to have it?
coz the lec know me dy!....>.<

"CK! "
"yes? "
"can follow ar?"
"aww can can.....=.="

OR

"Answer is ____ ....ist CK? "
"oh yes yes.....=.="

oh noooo!....now she like to call my name anytime she need or she want...
arghh...no plss...T____T

sigh...now!....macro cant play play dy...:( sad
Ma'am remember my name dy...shit....
have to be hardworking instead of Hard working...:(

But actually she is a good LEc! although she talk really like bullet train~~
i like her teaching style~~ quite friendly oso actually~~
i think tmr lec class i will become "Popular" d....
sigh...hope everything will be fine soon~~ >__<

*pray Pray*

Lalala

Yes~~ happy! have new blog~~ :D

LoL...>.<...lalala~~

Woohoo~~ <3

yeah will getting lesser and lesser blog at here...

yes happy~~ :D

tata~~ nitezzz~~ :D

累了。。。

原来。。。
爱一个人。。。是真的很累。。。
累到真的不想讲话。。。
因为。。。
都把想把说的话都说完了。。。
喜欢到累了。。。
疼也疼累了。。。
爱更是爱到累了。。。

我宁愿爱每个人。。。
也不愿爱你一人。。。
宁愿爱多一点人。。。
也不自私的把它只留给一个不值得我爱的人。。。
不请求任何爱的回报。。。
这样。。。
开心的。。。
倒是我自己 :)

伤。。。
不会伤到谷底离去。。。
痛。。。
也不会痛到心里去。。。
不是因为没痛过。。没伤过。。。
只是。。。累了。。。痛得累了。。。
那麻木的感觉。。。淹盖为了你的痛。。。。

习惯了。。。
做什么都习惯了。。。
不要再问我为什么。。。。
因为我已习惯那种感觉。。。那种从来不想习惯的习惯感觉。。。
好累好累。。。什么都不想做。。。
这时候。。。是该对自己说。。。
"我该休息了。。。"
晚安:)

hermmm..o_O

Aiks...too emo this recently...and i still can see there's many emo and sad posts from the facebook...

Just a quote FROM AND FOR myself>.<


Life still need goes on no matter we
Down or happy..... Succeed or Failed...

So why dun we just

->Accept the truth
->Live no worries
->Learn from the mistake
->Tougher than Before and
->Just live your life to the FULLEST!

Is wasting our time thinking too much Sometimes!
Be happy people! CheerS! :D

Nitez ppl...:)

1234 - Plain White T's__acapella cover

Arghh..Im falling in love with this guy~~♥♥♥ Seriously!!! lolxx..T_T
OopsSs....o.O...eh eh..no lar..jkjk...
hmmm...just found out in youtube...oh this guy is singing in acapella~
errm..whats the meaning im wondering actually...cant find in dictionary...=.=
hmm is something like one people sing in 3-5 people part
eg,
Lead : that always sing 1st part(d main chord of d group)

Bass : u should know wat ist...sounds like "duum..duum...duum"..=.=

Tenor1 & 2 : we call as 2nd and 3rd~ always sing in lower chord..and similar to bass also..

Beat Box : yeah~ this is d part that everyone like...:D

Watch it then u know~~

oh com'on.. this is superb okay~~!!
he's even doing all these alone by himself!
And this is done by ONLY use mouth and no adding sound system or any devices!!
Awwww...Listening non-stop babe~
Is amazing, awesome,fantastic! love him sooooo much~~♥♥♥(saliva flowing down...)
>.<....he's CoOL & Handsome guy rite?? screammm~~ahhhhhh~~! lolx...too sampat~
Again.....love him love him~~♥♥ >__<..yes yes!

Gonna Learn and Do this one day~~ :)

你，在吗？

喂。。。
你。。在吗？
此刻，突然好想念你。。。
你。。。还好吗？
最近又想你了。。。
好想见见你。。。
和你在一起。。。
对你说。。。
“我。。。又想你了。。。” :)
加油！;) 晚安。。。

Speechless day....

yeah, a 2nd blog is writing in a same time...same day....is very very rare to see...
why?
yes...im emo.....
sometimes...im wondering.....
how can i hide my expression and emotion from other ppl...but thats me...
tough outside....but soft inside...
but if u're long enuf stay v me...u will ever knew me....
never surprised...

hmm...is "transform" soon....
im wondering who am i sometimes....
even myself....cant figure it out.....
everytime i was listening to d slow rhythm and tempo songs...
you are d one who going to flood my mind...never ever stop leaking...
yeah...those songs...remember u and me....but fine.....
is just a normal matters for me...
3 words can explain myself..
"used to be"....
used to loving you...
missing you...staring at you...
and even hurt by you! :)

chows~ tired**
nitezz :)

A lonely nite...:(

Sometimes...im wondering....
am i still loving u....
i scared of falling in love...
coz i scare will lose u once again...
hate to be heartbroken...hate to be being abandoned....
im still looking....
looking for better hope...
looking for a better hope that i knew never happen...

is sighing...im losing my words...losing my gentlemen power...
losing myself for loving u...i hope i can grab it..hold it...and never let it go...
"now i think i know...what u tried to say to me"....
mb one day i will understand...
understand tis sentence....very soon...

and when im serious....
im not kidding...
coz im seriously loving you...
d moment im thinking of you...
d moment my heart is ready to be hurt...
tis is why im loving you....

im looking....searching....finding...
and yet...i cant see you....our world are not d same...
and i....leaving here soon....
trying not to tell u...
im not going to love u....
soon....but u will ever...
ever...leave memories...in my heart..
between u and me :)

感动。感动。

hmm....just saw one fren share tis video on the fb...
feeling my hand so itchy....go and click...
dl...
30%...
58%...
71%...
93%...
100%! done!
try to listen to tis song coz it sang by one of my fav. singer sodagreennnn!!!
yeah..once i listen, i do really addicted to it soo soo much!! T_T omg...
seriously u have to watch and listen to tis...:D why?
coz d video when half he sang, he cried....awww...i almost cried tOO..:'(
coz it sooo touch and d song melody.....T_T ♥ Love it love it ♥ haha ...lolx...
it really nice!...how i wish i could.....>.<...eh hem...

听着这首歌。。。。听着听着。。。
让我突然想起你。。。想你离开我时的那个背影。。。
好想牵着你的手。。。跟你说。。。
我。。。其实很想念你。。。
经常，都会有朋友问我说。。。
“你怎么了。。。又在哪里哪里搞emo...>.<”
也有人一直猜测我。。。。经常写的她会是谁。。。
嗯。。。这。。。当然不能说啦！！！。。。哈哈。。。:D

最近出了些状况，吓坏了身边朋友。。。
大家都想知道发生什么事吧。。。
在这里向大家解释。。。我。。没事！
放心。。。对不起。。。吓坏了大家。。。>.<
也想感谢我那位朋友。。。谢谢你的关心。。。是有点感动。。
一直跑来问我什么事。。。原谅我的无理。。。不是有心的。。。
因为脾气会坏了一些。。。考试压力吧。。。

第一次。。。是这么在意自己的成绩考到怎样。。。
平时就只想及格就行了。。。最近。。
就算怎么不会都好。。。都会逼自己努力读书。。。
要做，就做到最好！要玩，就玩到“搞搞”！
有点后悔了。。。
最近也受了许多感触。。。有些事想找人分享，却找不到。。。就只好一人默默吞掉那股气。。。。。:D
放心。。。要知道射手座是没这么容易放弃的！！！嘻嘻。。。

还有两天就出牢咯！！！LoL。。。。
高兴高兴!!!可是还可以在这里上网没读书。。T_T...
“喂！回来叻！跑到中国那边去了啊。。。。要考试叻！！”
读书读书。。。（心不在焉叻）。。。
多两天。。。多两天我就自由啦！！！:D
假期！我要来咯！！！
晚安。。。加油！:)

I Have a Dream

i like choir !!!!
this was my sec. school bands choir song...
actually i like choir more than duet song...
wish i could sing along v those christian or catholic-an during christmas eve...
they are nice actually...
everytime watch they sing choir at the stage it was super nice!!!

any society that is organized for singing in choir? chinese orchestra? hmmm...mb i should think about it....tired of staying in the current society...and it is under the condition being forced too...hate...sigh! =.=
it's to prove that he/she is useless in meeting new people and friends. Good in "counting" but BADDD in MARKETING...and management TOO!! BOOOO!!! lolx... :P
need to use force one!.......(Friendly Communication FAILED!) :P

hmm..next year...erm i mean nex new sem i'll try new society...i LIke MUSIC!!!
seriously...singing....or playing music instrument....the more i can express in than i speak...
♥ love it love it ♥ !!!
lolz...>.<...

"ooi, study lar...paper nautilus stuck at PAGE 2/134"..............
sigh...really gonna read AT LEAST ONCE although i dun likeeeee....ish....choww(run) 1st...see ya~

Ops..>.<..

yeah...cant study....
suddenly..im thinking of u....

hmm..something mess up my mind...
ist this is the time to change???....or....just let it be...
mb i can...mb i cant...hmmm...ya feeling bit confused....

sigh....let the time decide everything....
mb i should really change....
love is really blind....>.<

p/s : listening to the love songs....miss u...cont study....nitess :)

Have U ???

p/s : I miss you....seriously.... :)

:'(

龙舟悲剧，钟灵人永远的痛 - 最后的话。。.wmv






突然， 心里觉得酸酸的。。。
整个人好重。。。沉沉的。。。
听了这首歌。。。看了四川灾难短片。。。看到那些父母。。。听着这首歌。。。。
再看回这部关于龙舟学生翻船导致死亡事件。。。
感动了我。。。有点想掉泪。。。
虽然过了已久。。。
伤心的不是自己。。。
而是我们的父母。。。

看看那些照片。。。看看他们父母的样子。。。他们的表情。。。
看看他们的朋友。。。老师。。。同学。。。邻居。。亲戚。。。家人。。。
那一刻。。。他们是真的崩溃了。。。好无奈。。。好脆弱。。。好悲伤。。。。
他们哭了。。。是真的哭了。。。 :'(
其实天下的父母都是一样的。。。他们嘴里骂。。。讲。。。念。。。
其实都是真的很疼很疼我们。。。有时候你觉得他们不够知识。。。可是他们都是为了你好。。。。
虽然每天打给你问你在哪里是有点烦。。。
那就要忍。。。不要嫌弃。。。不要生气。。。
因为他们只是要这两个字---关心
有哪个父母不疼自己儿女。。。。吵了一夜。。。赶你出门。。。
表面是这么的坚强。。。可是里面是多么多么的痛。。。。

当那一刻他们知道孩子出了事。。。
那一刻。。他们就像输了全世界。。。。仿佛他们欠了世界什么东西。。。是一定要拿回的。。。
他们要的不是我们完美。。。也不是什么名誉。。。只想孩子回来。。。陪着他们过下半辈子。。。
有时我们只是跟朋友在一起。。。对着电脑玩。。。
也忘了给父母个问候。。。关心他们。。。其实他们需要的。。。
只是我们的关心。。。只是一句问候。。。
很多事情我们都以为我们是对的。。。换来你自己是父母。。。。你也想你孩子听你话。。。
你孩子却不听你话。。。你哪会不心痛。。。都是一样的。。。

此刻。。。好想给我爸妈一个拥抱。。。
好想说
“爸，妈，对不起。
我让你们担心了。。。我不会再让你们伤心了。。。
我。。。会听话的。。。
谢谢你们陪我长大。。。
放心。。。我会一路陪你们走下去。。。
就给我一点时间。。。让我陪你们吧。。。
爱你们”
此刻，眼泪湿透了眼眶。。。

你。。。。有没这么想过？？？
（心酸 。 感动）

妈，母亲节快乐。。。
辛苦你了。。。
谢谢你。。。:)

You Raise Me Up (Live) - Wang Leehom + Westlife

AH!!! I Like This Song Very³½ Very³½ Much!! Seriously!! is really nice!!!!!
OMG....really Raise Me Up! :D

Like WEstlife....LEe hoM...LiKe 他们合唱！！ 好有和旋~~~ :) forever fans~~ LOL!...>.<
how wish i can sing like tis~~ >.<


(LoL! sampat like a girl......=.=)

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yeeeeuuuuuu

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keeeeeeiiii

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lets shout! ahhh!!!!!...

p/s : stresssssssss.......@.@...
just wan to realease........

想念。。。

就只有想念他。。。

想念。。。

。。。 :'(

Argh!

suddenly feel so emo...
not becoz of wat....
but i really miss d past...
suddenly i miss it...
listening to the sad and slow melody songs~

Miss my school...
old classmates....
relatives....neighbors...
class...puppies...friends..band! my Saxophone....argh!
miss my childhood!!!! miss everyone....:'(
feel wanna hug hug><..LOL..im a man...but man can be weak sometimes also ler...T_T

suddenly i miss everyone...
everyone that passes through my life...
every single person...
every single things...
every single moments....
it recalls back my memories..
how i wish i could make the time back to when we small....

why every time people will feel regret when he/she lost something or miss it....
i admit i am that kind of person...(suddenly feel tis is not me!!>.<)
why tis can be happen to me???
ist the reason coming of 2012?? it can be earlier! i can feel so...although we cant believe 100%...(feel ridiculous but gonna happen soon!)
or i'd been experienced for sooooo many things....???

the time has changed....so do the people...and things...
even a beautiful rose could be withered...
a pretty lady could be as old and as pale as out of our expectation....
i really miss d past!!! seriously....
i love d person around me...loving everyone....sad :(
tired of being hate( but i never hate ppl b4...unless he/she(LaLAzai/mui??) is SUCKS! or i cant accept he/she be my friend...kicked out not inside my rules..)
LOL!

dun blame me too emo tis recently...><
i can be change as the weather changed...

(if there is music can revel me and make me drunk
and never wake up thats good!><)

nitezz people...take care :)

那一刻。。。

刚从exam hall听讲座会出来的他。。。
独自走在走廊上。。。
看见了ixora burger...摆档在他车旁边。。。
雨下得好大。。。
是不是。。。天。。正在哭？？？
此刻。。。他停下脚步。。。坐下叫了一个顺便填饱肚子。。。
好久。。。好久。。。
他没一人坐下吃东西了。。。

那一刻。。。
心里带着一丝丝的悲伤。。。
也带着无时的笑容。。。
走廊上。。。就只有他。。与做生意的两夫妻。。。
为他准备和煮了个汉堡给他吃。。。
当他吃上第一口。。。

那一刻。。。
只想身边有人能和他一起分享那温馨。。。温热又温暖的汉堡。。。
吹着那冷冷的风。。。好冷好冷。。。
那痛。。。突然从心里涌上而来。。。
就算吃了止痛药。。。打了麻醉药。。。
还是医不了的那种痛。。。

那一刻。。。
他很想放掉一切都不理。。。
好想回到以前那一刻。。。
单纯。。。天真。。。无辜。。。
他。。。。想念了。。。

滴。。。

答。。。

滴。。。

答。。。

雨。。。停了。。。

原来。。。
那一刻。。。
他。。。是真的累了。。。
上帝代替他哭。。。哭累了。。。
他背着那包袱。。。代替上帝说。。。他真的累了。。。

朋友的祝福。。。
朋友的留言。。。
甚至。。。
是朋友的邀请。。。
他。。。
都不想回了。。。
一一拒绝了。。。
不是他想要。。。
只是。。。
他真的很无言。。。不知该说什么好。。。

那一刻。。。
他只想好好。。好好地休息。。。
就让他这么一次好好。。。好好地休息。。。好吗？？？

朋友。。。
对不起。。。
他。。。
失陪了。。。
你们的心意。。。
他都明白了。。。也收到了。。。
只想说声“谢谢”。。。:)

最后的一篇文章。。。

今天。。。是最后一次在这个部落各记载这辈子的故事。。。

谢谢你。。。
在这短短日子里。。。
许多东西。。。
发现了。。学会了。。。也一样度过了。。。
知道该做的是什么。。。也知道不该做的是什么。。。

他。。。
没后悔认识你。。。
感到荣幸。。。也许。。。没认识你。。。
看不到更多事情。。。学不到新东西。。。
是一种遗憾。。。

不想忘恩。。。
不想负义。。。
过去就让它成为过去吧。。。
只留下回忆。。。
不留下任何后悔。。。。只留下一丝丝的遗憾。。。

想开始另一辈子的故事。。。
写一篇新的文章。。。

从此不再这里留言了。。。
就在此画上句点吧！

悄悄的我走了。。。
正如我悄悄的来。。。
我挥一挥衣袖。。。
不带走一片云彩。。。:)

带我走。。。

当我伤心的时候。。。
第一个想起的是你。。。
想找一个能了解我的人。。。
听听我的倾诉。。。
你在哪？？？
在我无助的时候。。。
只想把我的一切告诉给你听。。。
可是我得到的。。。不是我想要的。。。
你抛弃了我。。。你用了千万个理由拒绝了我。。。
原来。。。这是我们多年来。。。得来的一份亲情。。。这就是所谓的“干哥干弟”
我。。。需要一个能聆听我的心声的人。。。。
我失去了对身边的人的信任。。。
只想你让我分享我的感受。。。我的心情。。。
但我找不到那一个的你。。。
好想找一个人来分享。。。有谁能愿意分享我的感受。。。
心是好疼好疼。。。可是没人知。。。
脸上带着笑容。。。其实就只是掩饰着。。。
能不能带我走。。。

“带我远走高飞。。。。
不去理会这一个蜚短流长的世界布满虚伪。。。
是你让我选择沉醉。。。繁星守侯月不能睡
只因为爱上了夜的黑。。。
带我远走高飞
一起去追。。。有一个叫做幸福的世界没有泪水
我已经感觉到疲累。。。只想在你怀抱入睡
不在乎别人眼中是非”。。。。。。

就觉得这个词非常适合我。。。

珍惜与爱。。。

最近总是非常疲倦。。。不能像以前那样可以迟睡了。。。
察觉到自己开始老化。。。
记忆力差了。。。近视深了。。。身体弱了。。。
照照镜子。。。脸上的皱纹也逐渐多了。。。也越来越深了。。。
原来人没照顾身体。。。真的会老很多。。。
难道人真的要等到事情发生在他们身上才能反省吗？？？难道要等到他们失去了才能后悔吗？？？
是真的！。。。当你劝他时。。。他不听。。。就当是耳边风。。。不相信每个人没经历过吧。。。
时间过了。。。他才能后悔。。。这是人类最大的错误。。。试说有谁真正去珍惜过身边的人，事与物。。。

地球就像人类。。。有它的界限。。。一旦超过了极限。。。就爆发出来。。。谁都阻挡不了它。。。
现在什么电影。。什么短片关于天灾。。。人类都感到害怕。。。是不是？？？
因为人。。就是怕死。。。看了这些能灭绝人类的戏。。。就一直传出去。。。
他们才懂得什么叫害怕。。。什么叫后悔。。。

事情已经过去了。。。不该提的却一直：哭哭“提提”。。后悔这个想做那个。。。
没三思而后行。。。就喜欢一句“随便”吧。。。
结果答案出来了。。。就这边念那边念。。。怪你不好。怪他太烂。。。

东西不见了。。。身边的人走了。。物失了。。
才懂得什么叫珍惜这两个字。。。嘴里只会说不再这样。。。其实心里只是应酬罢了。。。
今天伤心。。。明天开心。。。“哈哈哈”。。。就过了一天。。。事情就这样的过去了。。。
就会说“忘掉以前，把握现在”。。。其实就是想逃避它。。。根本没去在意过。。。

借口其实只是掩盖你过去的错过。。。拿一样东西当替死鬼。。来补回自己的短处。。。
没人能看得见。。。可是往往说谎的只有自己才能知道。。。
就算别人看穿了。。。都不去说你。。。不是他不懂。。。而是装不懂。。。
为了是给你面子。。。不在大众面前讲你。。。
就算是讲你。。。其实他是在劝你。。。不是骂你针对你让你出丑。。。而是在帮你。。。
他们所做的一切不是不帮你。。。其实就是再帮你。。。
要你自己反省。。。偏偏你就是发现不到。。。就一直错下去。。。

朋友。。。爱。。多一点吧。。。爱自己。。。也爱他人。。。
这世界缺少了爱。。。珍惜一切。。。不要失去了才真正的后悔。。。其实是来不及补回的。。。是真的。。。
事情过去了就让它过去。。。
没留下后悔，只留下遗憾。。。
它没值得你去保留它。。。至少你曾经拥有过。。。
人生没有第二个机会。。。那只会出现在游戏里。。。人的“梦想”。。。。

睡觉咯~~ 开始累了。。。一天比一天早一点睡。。久了就习惯了。。
爱自己多一点！！！照顾自己的身体~~ 晚安~~ :)

冲刺

刚刚和朋友喝完茶回来。。。
这样一天又过了。。。咯。。。
累。。明天又有上课。。。还要做assignment...

不能咯！答应自己不能再这样堕落下去。
第一次考试考这么烂。
简直不像样。 真的是一半的一半再一半。。。还不到叻。。。
还给朋友骂了一顿。。是时候反省了！！
最近不知道怎么了。。。
心情一直变。。。
时好时坏。。连身边朋友都怕了我。。。
也许就像跟随天气。。。好就跟你笑。。不好理都不理。。
可能是压力吧。。没什么心情。。。考试酱烂。。不懂能不能过大考吗。。。

最近正在调谐自己。。。不知道走到哪里去了。。
迷惘。。。可是还是会拉回自己。。不做梦咯！！！
好！明天开始真的要逼自己读书了。一点都好。。不能拖。
加油！！
不写了。。觉得好啰嗦。。累。。
晚安。LoL..><

男人 。 女人

原来男人和女人真的就是永远的两个人。。。
不能合为一体。。。
真不明白女人心是在想什么。。。
有些时候。。。男人做事。。。女人不了解男人要的是什么。。
说这个不好那个不好。。。
什么迟钝。。。没心。。
可是不往另外一个思想去看。。。
又不看他们自己回去做。。
结果做了还不是一样。。。差别不大。。。
唉。。。

男人做东西不复杂。。。女人就说没创意。。。
懒惰。。。简单。。。
可是又不看她们会去想更好的方法。。。
男人想的东西。。。永远不能和女人一样。。。
男人发脾气。。女人就说男人可怕。。。
可是。。。女人不出声。。往往都比任何人可怕啊！！！
都不知道他们想要的是什么。。讲又不讲。。。
这个没事。。。那个静静。。。
烦的还不是男人。。。身为一个男友要去安慰她。。。疼她。。。送她东西。。。
男人伤心又不看她们会去鼓励她。。。说什么男人。。。将就倒下来。。。没用。。。。
有事情又不拿出来讲啦。。。这边收那边收。。。所以男人都不知道他们错的是什么啦。。。

有时候我觉得很累。。。跟女人说话。。。我甘愿对墙壁讲话。。。对我家里狗讲话更加好。。。
至少它还能对我摇尾巴。。。生气就咬我。。。起码我还懂它不喜欢我嘛。。。
有时跟女人说话真的很累。。。我甘愿不出声算了。。。给他们讲我太有情绪好过讲我八公多管闲事。。。
算了。。。总之。。。男与女就像鸡同鸭讲。。。永远不明白双方讲的是什么话。。。
还是男与男。。。女与女沟通算了。。。至少有一样的话题讲。。。要得东西都一样啦。。。
男人女人就像水和油。。。就算融合了。。。还是要分开。。。世界都是不一样。。。

算了。。。只想拿来发泄。。。讲了就算了。。。累。。自己顾不好要顾别人。。。
吃自己啦。。。

脆弱。。。

突然。。。
自己感到好脆弱。。。好堕落。。。
好想找人安抚自己。。。指导自己。。。陪伴自己。。。
我。。。又突然的迷路了。。。
前方的路。。。好多好多。。。
虽然我知道有些路不能走。。。
可是偏逼自己走。。。。好痛苦。。。心疼。。。
能不能带我离开这密布的森林吗？

心里。。。有好多好多。。。说不完的话。。。
可是总是说不出来。。。

感到非常悲哀。。。
发觉。。。
其实人的生命是多么的短暂。。。
即使你能活多一天。。。
也逃不过死神的手掌。。。
只能让你忧虑多一天。。。

也许。。。人就是这么的顽强。。。
嘴说放就放。。。可是却放不下。。。不想走。。。
就是放不开。。。
好想独自一人。。。
出外走走。。。去看看这世界。。。
多么的美丽。。。
人。。。
就是这么的脆弱。。。

爱。。。

爱。。。
有谁能去解释这真正的意思？
爱。。。
难道就是男的爱上女的。。。两人在一起。。。活到地久天长吗？
或者。。。两人爱在一起。。。平平静静。。。没任何烦恼的在一起吗？

前几天。。看了一个短片。。。。。。
原来。。。爱真的不只是我爱你这么简单。。。
背后的感人故事。。。却没人知道。。。
它。。。需要的不是一颗能爱的心。。。却是一个能等待的心。。。
要经过磨炼。。。彼此能体谅对方。。。了解对方。。。耐心的去爱。。。
身边的每个朋友。。。。有些变了情侣。。。分分合合。。。合合分分。。。
也有些正享受他们的热恋时期。。。
分了原因。。。
也许彼此的爱情变了淡了。。。
腻了。。。距离远了。。。才不爱对方。。。
或也许。。。他或她的出现。。。
使到他不再爱她了。。。
彼此不信任对方。。。

不久。。。他们又合了。。。
因为他们发觉生活里缺少些东西。。。
没他的一天。。。
就像咖啡少了糖一样。。。
幅画里只有黑白的。。。
看不到任何颜色。。。
原来大家还挂念对方。。。
想找回热恋的时候。。。手牵着手一起走。。。
其实要得到一份爱情。。。并不这么容易。。。
分比爱来得容易。。。
不要轻易放弃自己。。。
更不要轻易放弃对方。。。

身边的朋友都会问我。。。
“你几时才能找到一个？？”
“嗯。。。还是迟点吧。。。不去想。。”
也有人认为。。。通常第一个的只是个试验而已。。。
玩玩罢了。。。不可能永久的。。。还是试吧。。。咯。。。
对我来说。。我想要的。。。第一个。。。也是最后一个。。。
很多人也是有这样的想法吧。。。也许说得好像很容易。。。
又好像好潇洒。。。因为每个都会认为。。。这样才能显示自己多忠实。。不花心。。。？？
我却不认为。。。因为要找到一个你能真正爱的人。。。主要不是外表吧。。。
而是。。。。心。。。就算你爱她。。。可是心不爱她。。。也没用。。。
反而证明了。。。其实你不是真正爱她。。。而只是喜欢而已。。。欣赏而已。。
喜欢她那魔鬼般苗条的身材。。。贪她的美。。。欣赏她那润光雪白的脸。。。爱上他那身家百万的钱??
可是试问她/他。。。是否真的打动了你的心。。。感动了你。。。
我觉得。。。十个。。有七个会说没有。。。。就凭良心问自己吧。。。

话说回。。。要爱一个人是很容易。。。
可是要用心去爱。。。不是每个人都能做到。。。
有些人。。。爱了几十年。。。最后两个字分手。。。就这样了结。。。
千百万个理由出来。。。数不清的借口来掩饰。。。
爱情没的逼。。勉强是没幸福。。。
一切都靠缘分吧。。如果相遇了。。。就好好珍惜。。。不是每个都有一样的机会。。。
别去执著吧。。。缘分到了。。自然就属于你的啦。。一切顺其自然。。。
加油:)

变了

好久没写部落格了。。。咯。。。
还是第一次用华语写。。。哈哈。。。还是觉得写华语比较有感情。。。

其实想写好久了。。。只是没有心情写。。。都是一句话。。。懒惰。。。嘻嘻。。。
对自己感到某些高兴。。因为自从上了云顶。。。
学校活动。。。
周围变化。。。
使到我变了。。。
短短两个月内。。。
发觉现在的我不在是以前的我。。。
就像等了好久才从火山爆发出来。。
整个人变了轻松许多。。
放开许多。。。不再那么痴心了。。。看的事情比较远了。。。
知道自己要的是什么。。
不再像以前一直犹豫不决。。
想这个。。烦那个。。
虽然有时候不知怎么做决定。。。可是至少不会选择逃避。。。尽量逼自己去面对它。。。

变了。。。
唯一有点伤心的事。。。
就是真的是时候变了。。。
四周围的环境变了。。。
朋友也变了。。。
连自己也变了。。。
已经是第三个学期了。。。
明年就是大家开始进入自己的重要科系了。。
所以大部分都会分开掉。。。
要学会独立。。靠自己了咯。。。
发觉到。。。我们不再是以前的那么熟悉了。。
不是因为大家吵架不合。。只是。。大家开始追逐自己的梦想。。

现在。。。正在听着以前我中学时乐队的歌。。。
其实我的梦想不是一个商人。。。是当一个指挥家。。。我曾想过。。。
有一天。。。
站在舞台指挥乐团的那个人会是我。。。
手，拿着指挥棒。。。
指挥乐团。。。
带动台下的观众。。。
不是在炫耀自己多厉害。。。
而是让大家享受音乐的存在。。。
它。。不是死的。。也不是硬的。。。
它。。是活的。。飘动着。。。旋舞着。。。
只是大家没看到。。。感觉不到。。

试放下脚步。。。静下来。。思想。。。
我们。。。有多少个明天。。。
我们。。有多少个机会。。。
在一个屋檐下。。。认识了你我。。。
我。。。觉得你好面善。。
因为上辈子。。。你曾是我的情人。。。
我们爱在一起。。
你。。。很讨厌我。。。
因为前世。。。我是你的敌人。。。
可是今世。。我们又能如此相遇。。
是天上赐给我们的。。
叫做。。。缘分。。。
这缘分。。不是每一人都能拥有它。。。
也许。。下辈子。。。见都没见过。。。
大家住在同个屋子里。。。可是永远看不到对方。。。
中间隔着玻璃镜。。。虽然是透明的。。。可是两人的世界不同。。无法相遇。。。

还是觉得做人现实。。。脚踏实地最好。。。
亲情。。。朋友熟了。。。还是会有分离的一天。。。
在乎的不是我们能不能再次相遇。。。而是。。。
我们曾经认识过。。。分了。。。不代表会忘了他。。。
而是从来没从记忆里删除他。。。还是存在。。。
爱情。。。虽然你不能爱他。。。不代表你没缘份。。。
只是。。缘份还没轮到你。。。
需要的。。只是耐心。。。一颗能等待的心。。。

现在。。世界都变了。。。什么都变了。。。
什么世界末日。。。什么你死我亡。。。
夜晚。。看上去的深蓝色天空。。。不再是深蓝色。。。
而是橙红色。。。每一夜每一晚都一样。。。
看的星星一天比一天模糊。。。一天比一天少。。。示乎离开了我们。。。
我。。。只等待那一天的存在。。。
也许你信。。。也许你不。。。
可是我会的。。。就是珍惜现在眼前一切。。。
该玩就玩。。。该做就做。。。
不再等了。。后悔莫及了。。。
学会去爱。。。学会珍惜。。。学会放开。。。
保重 : )

Let it go

no more....no anymore...
seriously i alrdy gv up....
wont bother anymore....wont care anymore...
i have feel no respect from others ppl...
is just.......really s.a.d! =(
is not wat i've expected....
i feel very disappointed...
u know....when teaching...nobody wan listen...nobody wan see....
u have ur idea...u have ur "Tea TimE"...u can go anywhere..as u like!
and u never get from my permission...
u can play "scissor, cloth and stone" in front of me....
then u can just leave....
good!
im just invisible....
i never appear....
now i felt that...all i did is just nothing!
mb im too serious...mb u dun like...fine...i leave then....and nvr come again.....
pls find another ppl lead u...guide u...and hope good luck to u....
alrdy gave up....let it go.....be happy=)

Emo~

haiz..is sigh!
my mood is getting better than juz now....
just because my sis wan watch movie...but it dl slow....
and she cant wait....so she quit again and click in....
click here and there..here ok there ok....simply dl things...
some online games or software..
make me very angry...
coz i scare got virus....
so i decide to uninstall d programme...
but cant at first...
i keep trying on myself..ask friends...try many ways....
at last....i discover it myself and know how to uninstall it d...
because im quite a comp nerd...

1st..im just wondering why ppl will get so angry with one thing sometimes....even myself...
it just a small prob though...
but i can angry till nagging here and there...
just very angry...v rude manner..and talking ways...

and im now jus realize...
sometimes ppl will do wrong...but they din realize....
why we should care bout it and angry???mb it is ur own things..
u dont wan ppl to touch it or spoil it....unless u urself spoil it then it just another matter...
now...im trying to control my emotion....trying not to angry to anyone...
tis is just a life...we should not angry to him/her although they did wrong....
and it just a mistake...not they wan sometimes....

sometimes....im just wan to apologize to those I'd angry with him/her...
but i couldnt speak out...i feel my fault...
and i make d person sad...
is sorry people.....sorry...=(
coz..mb im d hot tempered person....
will easily get angry sometimes...
i feel guilty and regret every time i scold that person...
coz it not wat i want...just it is nature....
u will emo because u face the prob that u dont like...
but to others they dont feel they dont like sometimes....
so we have to accept it...
things already happened....
think far bit...look wise bit....be open ur heart....
try to forgive others...forgive their pass...forgive their wrong...
nothing is perfect in tis world...
but can b d best in tis world....
thats why we need to improve...
need to change....and need to solve...
and tis only wat we can do..to love others...=)
god bless =)